Freak out.

totally freaking out right now. i'm so so scared. it's chemistry tomorrow. oh help. i'm not prepapred, not prepared at all to take exams. i want reality to kick me.  i want to stop dreaming. i want to start panicking. no, i have started panicking...

today feels like the horribly horrible calm before the storm, it feels like one of those regattas where we are on the shore just waiting to launch our boats into a storm, watching the dark sinister black clouds slowly inch their way towards us, feeling the soft gentle sea breeze blow at our faces. but we know all too well that the soft gentle breeze would soon erupt into a ferocious gale which will every so often threaten to blow us over, sending us crashing out of our boats and into the water as we sail slowly and streadily into the heart of the storm. i've been in all that before and it's was never a good feeling. but that's exactly how i feel like today.

tomorrow we enter the last lap, the final sprint to the finish. the finish that we've been working towards for these past 4 years. the final judgement.

the next 4 weeks are going to be hectic. tomorrow starts it all. it's either going to make me or break me. i'm either going to feel pround and satisfied with myself at the end or regret it, regret everything, regret not putting in everything i had and realising only after i'm done and through. i wish the latter will never come to be.

Everybody knows the end
When the curtain hits the floor
Everybody knows the end
Don't wanna get there wishing that you'd given more
It's not over, till it's over
So how do we begin?
When everybody knows the end

it's the final stretch. i'm going to give it my all.

on that final note, my dear friends, i wish you all the best of luck. May God bless you.

Oopsie.

yeah. oops! as u can see i blatenly wrote yesterday as 16th of september and not october as it should be. ah,i just reflects how badly i want it to be still september.

the days are closing in. the big Os are coming. there, a straight forward sentence.

and i can't can't believe it. yesterday was one month to my birthday. today makes it 30 days from my birthday. AND I FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT! normally i would've remembered the date. normally i remember the date of even 2 months before my birthday. but this morning i just got up and was like "oh my gosh yesterday was 16th of october"

i know others won't really know the significance of this date. but for me, being a late-in-the-year november kid, 16th of october is a big deal since i usually wait a gazillion months just for my birthday. and the thing is, this year i have no recollection of waiting at all for my brithday. i've been studying too much that time just flew right by. i think this year has been the only time ever that i am wishing my birthday did not come so fast.i bet that if my birthday was during the exams, i would have forgotten it completely.

ohh ohh! but i've at least got one thing off my mind. the prom dress worry that kept me up all night is no more! yes i've bought one. hurrah. now comes the buy-shoes-and-earings worry. hmmm.

=|

goodluck studying!

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janice: haha! yeah. thanks for pointing it out! (: lol i must've been dreaming or wishing that it was 16th of september. xD jia you too!!! now 3 days left! oh my...

It's work o'clock.

well it better be, for me anyway. it had better be for the next 4 weeks i tell ya. gosh, i don't even know why i'm bothering to type this up. *warning: a very much complaining and rambling post.

it's like 352,800 seconds to chemistry paper 2. oops, we've lost a couple of seconds there... do you know how small that number suddenly seems? i mean, every time u can say "one thousand" we minus one off that number and believe me it's gonna decrease at an alarming super-fast speed. and by the time it hits zero, or zearro as mrs yap says, i don't know if i will be alive enough to be doing the actual paper.

argh. i'm getting so scared right now. and i still have to deal with all the other stuff like prom dresses :( oh why oh why oh why did they have to cram prom into our last paper. and why didn't i go shopping before....

i'm so doomed. as of now, 16th of september 12.15 pm, there's 351,900 seconds to go.

They tell me that only the strong survive
I don't know if we'll make it through the night
I guess I'll see you in the afterlife
They tell me that only the strong survive...

please let me be one of them...

okay, rant over. back to horribly long geography

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tagbacks:

lol: yeah it's out! but they don't bring in to singapore - which sucks. i ordered mine online and had it shipped here. haha. yes i love dougie too (: btw, who are u? lol!!

S.O.S

9 days more. no, that was yesterday. correction: make that 8 days more.

ohmygoodnessgracious.

It's like, ohmigosh.

yeah. today was the Official First Day of the Last week of school. bleughh. and we've just passed the last monday EVER in TK.

i seriously dread this week ending way more than i want it to end. don't even get me started on how much i'll miss 4A and classes and TK and secondary school and sailing and everything. i could write a whole chronicle on how much i love secondary school and how much i wish it didn't have to end so fast.

i'm going to miss secondary school. so so much. and i can't describe exactly how much i'm gonna miss 4A - it's just too much.

but nevermind, we all still have 4 DAYS officially left with each other. let's make the BEST of it. lets cherish it and make it a good time.

but if anyone plays Graduation - Vitamin C or any other school related song on friday. i'm going to cry. i think i will.

 

wahhh. we're all going to turn into emo, overworked stressed-to-death students.

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ying tai: yeah i know. i'll make sure i won't stay back lahh.

Oh for the future.

my future is set, set in stone, in black and white on paper. at least my JC future that is.

MJC, here i come! i guess initially it scared me to know that, yes now i'm stuck in a certain JC and other options are totally over - no VJC, no TJC, no poly. but then after the open house yesterday, i don't feel so bad and actually i'm quite satisfied with my chioce (i hope).i mean, i like the school! it's bright, cheery, not to mention super giagantic! and yeah they seem pretty fun people with good school culture. MJC may not be the best or the most pretegious school but i think it doesn't really matter to me. they're up and coming, produce pretty good results and i think that's quite good already.i don't need to go to a super big-named school anyway. i'll only be there for 2 years! i really hope i don't regret saying these stuff. haha.

all i have to do now is work really hard.

work? did ya say work? yes seriously you don't wanna even get a small hint of how much work i have to do (unless you've got the same) haha. we're all going to die... papers- mock papers, prelim papers, other school papers. papers papers papers coming out of my ears. and i think i'm crazy cos i just went to popular to get more. oh dear me. so much for mr wee's "pacing, you must have pacing..."

okay, i'm getting back to Emaths. sorry for all the babble up there :P

steamboat tonight! yay

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tagbacks

ying tai: LOL. yeah my brother spread it out on the floor (: and it was way way longer than that. it's just that our house wasn't long enough

cyn: haha! yeah imagine carrying that to school!!! my back will like just break. haha! and we have like 9 subjects, so 9 rolls! LOL

dan: lol. u got excited over paper... haha i should bring it to school then we can all draw on it. i bet our class can fill it up :P

janice: haha! it's my mum that brought it home actually. lol. i have no idea where she got it from! (:

Children's Day!

Yeahh! i used to love love love this day because in primary school children's day meant going to school just to party, getting loads of cool presents from teachers, no lessons!, half day of school, children's day concert where we watched and laughed hysterically at the hilarious concert items the teachers put up for us.ahh good times.

now we don't celebrate it anymore. which is terribly sad! childrens day was one of my fave holidays. and it's not like we celebrate youth day anyway. but you know what? i'm still a kid at heart! yeah we all are and i think we all deserve to have children's day.this year we're lucky - childrens day clashes with Hari Raya.

Oh YA! SELAMAT HARI RAYA! (:

haha! primary school kids are short of one holiday now. heh. still, it's not much of a "holiday", i'm still studying my ass off.

yesterday, er... we went abit nuts and lined the whole hallway, no not hallway but hallway plus my mum's bedroom, with a LONG sheet of paper. and then we proceded to fill it up with drawings, inspired by that cool nokia advert, which we never did anyway. such a long long roll of paper!

 

P.S. the 'product' i mentioned earlier (that funny cute advert remember?) is...*drumrolls*... UNDERWEAR! haha. yeah cool.

and 'microgolf oven' is actually just microwave oven in flemish

Quote of the day: "ahh there's a fly....SHOOO"

okay. enjoy the rest of your Children's day "holiday" (:

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janice: wow! haha long tag =P yeah i dunno what i'm gonna do with all my books after the Os. haha! the 'product' answer is above =P

yingtai: Bingo! you got it, it's underwear. well, it's OBVIOUSLY not condoms! LOL ewww i wouldn't buy condoms...